I Shouldn’t Be Okay With This


When I look at you, my heart aches,
So I don’t look at you. I look
Past you. Past us. An unfocused
Gaze works best to filter what I
Don’t want to see. It’s easier

This way, isn’t it? Since it takes
The edge off. Before I mistook
You for The One, I had no trust
In love. I let you change that by
Pretending not to see we were

Fooling ourselves. I wonder why
I can’t give up this easy blur.